Expectations.

It's funny how my expectations are sky high yet I don't honor my action with my words.

I've heard the gasp when I told people that their scores are not good, in my opinion, and if you don't like it, that's your problem? Why bring it up in the first place? Uh huh, your fault.
I've heard more gasps when I said that 3.8 is what I think is average, and 4.3 is what is considered good to me. That slight-angled smile and judgemental eyes I've seen so often appeared, yet, I can't seem to ignore even though I'm so used to it. I don't like my scores, I think it's really bad. I never knew the results are gonna be that bad?

A - PL.
A- - MA.
B - MKT.
A- - SC.
A- - SW.

Yeah, that's what I EXPECT, not what I got. Reality was far off, far far off.
I'm not trying to put down NTU, but after I heard the results from some of my peers in NTU, I can't help to think that there really is a valid reason why majority chooses NUS? The power of the bell curve is so much more crucial? But that's what I feel, same scores but the effort really differs by such a large measure, that I'm surprised. Of course, this depends on the faculty as well.

Maybe I'm just sore? I don't know. Okaye, we all know, just refuse to admit. I won't forget how she felt so depressed because she failed to meet the requirement for psychology and everything she planned was rendered useless in that split second. That is something I will make sure I won't go through at the end of semester 2 because I have no backup plans and that is one very big risk I'm taking despite all the disagreements I've heard.

God bless me. I'm planning carefully for my modules this semester cos I need my cap to be 4.5 and above to make sure by the end of year 1, I will be in second upper class. It is really depressing when I heard my senior confessed that psychology majors cap score are usually from 3.2 onwards and rarely above 4. I don't wanna be mediocre like that. I hope my belief that interest in the subject will make me do better, and I'm glad that my belief got reinforced by my psychology score this semester, A-, really happy about it. That's pure awesomeness to me - it's like for once in my life, "If you enjoy what you are doing, you will excel eventually.", changed from mere words I've seen to words that I'm able to express personally.

Oh yeah, just realised a few days ago that NUS, which is, 國大，is in fact, 新加坡國立大學, I'm positive that at least half of my friends doesn't know that.

Think this was on the plane back from Bangkok to SG...or was it the other way round?